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EIN MENSCH WECHSELT SEIN GESCHLECHT

[Signatures: Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931. Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931.] Von Niels HoyerNiels Hoyer (historical), pseudonym of Ernst Harthern, who composed and edited Man into Woman

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(01) Als kürzlich eine der größten Zeitungen KopenhagenCopenhagen (historical), capital of Denmarks berichtete, daß die Ehe des über DänemarkDenmark is a Scandinavian country in northern Europe whose capital is Copenhagen.s Grenzen hinaus bekannten Künstlerpaares EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 and Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener von den dänischen Behörden für ungültig erklärt worden sei, eine Ehe, die über 20 Jahre gedauert hat und hervorgegangen ist aus einer Jugendliebe "auf den ersten Blick", da hielten die "Uneingeweihten" den Atem an. Sensation umwehte diese Mitteilung. Und das Getuschel begann, zumal Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener, die in KopenhagenCopenhagen (historical), capital of Denmark gerade eine Ausstellung ihrer neuesten Bildwerke und vieler Bilde Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931s veranstaltete, noch erklärte, daß EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 jetzt zum allerletzten Male ausstelle . . .

(02) Bald darauf erfuhren auch die "Uneingeweihten" die Ursache von beidem—und zwar aus dem Munde von Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931, einer jungen Dame, deren Namen bislang noch niemand gehört hatte. Man sah sie in Begleitung von Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener. Unerkannt ging sie mit ihr durch Frau GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegeners Ausstellung. Sie grüßte [Two pictures: Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 als Maler in ParisParis (historical), capital of France . . . Jetzt Fräulein Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 (KopenhagenCopenhagen (historical), capital of Denmark, February 1931)]
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da und dort ein ihr bekanntes Gesicht, and ihr Gruß begegnete erstaunten Augen.

(03) Seit mehreren Jahren hatten GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener und Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 in ParisParis (historical), capital of France gelebt und gemalt. Als sie heirateten, war sie 17 und er 19 Jahre alt . . . In ParisParis (historical), capital of France hatten sie es zu Ansehen gebracht. Beide stellten seit Jahren in den ersten Salons von ParisParis (historical), capital of France aus, beide besaßen die "Goldenen Palmen" der AkademieArt Academy (fictional), modeled on The Royal Danish Academy of Fine Arts (Det Kongelige Danske Kunstakademi) in Copenhagen, where Einar and Gerda Wegener studied and met. Von Frau GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener hängt sogar im Luxembourg-MuseumLuxembourg Museum (historical), a museum of contemporary art located in Paris im ParisParis (historical), capital of France ein Porträt. –

(04) "Weshalb", fragte ich Frau GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener, "will EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 nicht mehr malen?"

(05) "Das mag Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 Ihnen erzählen", antwortete die Gefragte still und ein-fach . . .

(06) "Ja, das will ich gern, denn ich halte es für meine Pflicht, über den Maler Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931, der nicht mehr ist, die Wahrheit zu erzählen . ."

(07) "EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 ist doch nicht tot?" fragte ich entsetzt.

(08) "Nein, das ist er nicht, aber er existiert auch nicht mehr. Er hat sich freiwillig ausgelöscht, um Platz für ein anderes Wesen zu machen, das, wie er meinte, größeres Daseinsrecht hat als er selber, und dieses andere Wesen — bin ich. Ja, ich weiß, daß Sie und vielleicht viele mit Ihnen es schwer verstehen werden. Aber mein Leben hat sich so ganz anders gestaltet, daß ich in Wirklichkeit nicht mehr mein früheres Leben lebe, sondern ein Dasein abgeschlossen habe und jetzt den Anfang einer neuen Daseinsform mache. [Picture: Eine Porzellanskulptur Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931s] Ich will versuchen, es Ihnen zu erklären."

(09) Fräulein LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 lehnt sich in einen tiefen Sessel zurück und setzt ihre hohen Stöckelschuhe auf einen Schemel. Es kommt ein träumerischer Ausdruck in ihre großen, dunklen Augen. Sie erzählt von einem kleinen Kinde, das, in dem jütländischen Städtchen VejleVejle (historical), Einar Wegener’s birthplace in the Jutland region of Denmark einst geboren, vom Pastor und der Hebamme für einen Knaben erklärt und als Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 in das Kirchenbuch eingetragen wurde. Es war ein sehr schönes Kind, und da Einars MuttterAne Marie Wegener (historical), Einar Wegener’s mother den Jungen gern hübsch aufputzte, gab es schon damals viele, die glaubten, er sei ein kleines Mädchen.

(10) EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 selber fühlte sich als Knabe, wenn er mit seinen Brüdern spielte, aber sein größtes Vergnügen war, mit dem Puppenwagen der Schwestern herumzufahren, doch nur, wenn niemand es sah. Aber während das Bübchen heranwuchs, fühlte es ganz fern manchmal, daß er nicht so ganz war wie die anderen. Doch solch Gedanken verwehten in dem Kna-benhirn unter einer allmählich immer stärker werdenden Begeisterung für Kunst und Literatur. Künstler wollte der Jüngling werden. Er kam nach KopenhagenCopenhagen (historical), capital of Denmark und bald auf die KunstakademieArt Academy (fictional), modeled on The Royal Danish Academy of Fine Arts (Det Kongelige Danske Kunstakademi) in Copenhagen, where Einar and Gerda Wegener studied and met.

(11) Hier begegnete er einem jungen Mädchen, das GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener hieß und auch die Kunst zum Beruf gewählt hatte. Es war eine Liebe auf den ersten Blick. Beide waren noch sehr jung—so erzählt Fräulein LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931—als sie heirateten, vielleicht noch so jung, daß sie gar nicht recht wußten, was sie taten, aber sie haben diesen Schritt später nie bereut. Dieser Bund, den alle anderen stets für eine Ehe ansahen, war auf gegenseitiges Verstehen, unverbrüchliche Freundschaft, inneres Vertrauen und Kameradschaftsgefühl in der Arbeit aufgebaut. Deshalb haden sie einander nie im Stiche gelassen, und deshalb werden sie auch zukünftig einander nahestehen wie zwei wahre Freundinnen, die einander das Beste wünschen und alles tun wollen, um einander zu helfen.

(12) Und Fräulein LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 erzählt weiter: "Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener benutzte ihren Mann EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 oft als Modell, und zwar fast stets für weibliche Akte, und durch GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegeners künstlerischen
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Instinkt geschah es, daß in EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931s Wesen allmählich das weibliche Element immer stärker betont wurde, daß er nach und nach zu der richtigen Erkenntnis seines wahren Ichs kam . . . Und jetzt began eine Reihe von Jahren, die so angefüllt waren mit Leiden, daß ich am liebsten nicht mehr daran denken möchte. Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 fühlte sich wie jemand, der gezwungen ist, in einem fremden Gewand herumzugehen, das ihn beengt, in dem er sich lächerlich vorkommt. Zu den psychischen Leiden kamen noch körperliche. Vergeblich suchte er in ParisParis (historical), capital of France bei französischen Ärzten Hilfe. Keiner wollte ihm glauben. Sie hielten ihn für hysterisch und behandelten ihn mit Röntgenstrahlen, die mir, wie sich später herausstellte, mehr Schaden als Nutzen brachten."

(13) "Durch einen Zufall", fährt Fräulein LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 fort, "kam ich, als ich bereits alle Hoffnungen aufgegeben hatte, jemals wieder ein normal fühlender und denkender Mensch zu werden, in Verbindung mit einem hervorragenden deutschen Gynäkologen, Professor Dr. K. v. W.Kurt Warnekros (1882–1949), a German gynecologist who performed all but the first of four surgeries on Lili Elvenes; director of the Women’s Clinic in Dresden (Staatliche Frauenklinik) from 1925 to 1948, dem Leiter der Staatlichen FrauenklinikMunicipal Women's Clinic (fictional and historical) is the Staatliche Frauenklinik in Dresden, directed by Professor Kurt Warnekros from 1925 to 1948." in DresdenDresden (historical), city in Germany. Er untersuchte mich und stellte fest, daß ich nicht ein Mann, sondern in weit überwiegendem Grade eine Frau war. Das Ergebnis war, daß ich auf seine Aufforderung hin zuerst zwecks Untersuchungen zu zwei Berliner Spezialisten und dann nach DresdenDresden (historical), city in Germany fuhr, wo er in seiner KlinikMunicipal Women's Clinic (fictional and historical) is the Staatliche Frauenklinik in Dresden, directed by Professor Kurt Warnekros from 1925 to 1948." mehrere schwere Operationen an mir vornahm. Es waren übrigens die ersten dieser Art, die er jemals ausge-führt hatte . . .

(14) Es war ein Leiden viele Monate lang. Oft war ich dem Tode nahe. Aber die Wissenschaft und meine eigene Nature siegten. Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 war in die KlinikMunicipal Women's Clinic (fictional and historical) is the Staatliche Frauenklinik in Dresden, directed by Professor Kurt Warnekros from 1925 to 1948." gekommen, und die Frau, mit der Sie jetzt sprechen, die sich Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 nennt, verließ die KlinikMunicipal Women's Clinic (fictional and historical) is the Staatliche Frauenklinik in Dresden, directed by Professor Kurt Warnekros from 1925 to 1948."."

(15) "Und sind Sie jetzt glücklich?" fragte ich sie.

(16) "Ja, das bin ich. Ich bin so glücklich, wie man es nur werden kann, wenn man von Lebensumständen erlöst wird, die einem aufgezwungen sind, wie man es nur sein kann, wenn man sich in Übereinstimmung [Picture: Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 vor etwa 12 Jahren Nach einer Zeidnung von Louis KohlNeeds Editor's Note.] mit sich selber fühlt . . . Das ist es gerade, was ich gern klarmachen möchte: Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 ist nicht mehr, und deshalb kann er auch nicht mehr malen — nicht etwa, weil er an seiner Kunst verzweifelte, gibt er sie auf."

(17) "Aber können Sie den nicht malen?"

(18) "Das weiß ich nicht. Ich habe es noch nicht versucht, und ich fühle keinen Drang danach. Bedenken Sie doch, für mich ist das Leben noch so neu, ich muß mich erst im Dasein zurechtfinden . . . Und selbst wenn ich versuchen sollte zu malen, so ist meine ganze Einstellung, meine ganze Lebensanschauung so verschieden von der EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931s, daß es niemals eine Fortsetzung seiner Arbeit werden könnte. Er war so ausgeprägt männlich in seiner ganzen Malweise . . . Nein, dies hier ist und bleibt Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931s letzte Ausstellung."

(19) "Glauben Sie denn, daß Sie die Kunst völlig entbehren können?"

(20) "Nein, aber es ist möglich, daß sich mein künstlerischer Trieb in ganz anderen [Picture: Ein Gemälde Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegeners: Drei Frauen Für die mittlere diente der Künstlerin ihr Gatte EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 als Modell, in der Frau rechts stellte sie sich selbst dar]
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Formen auslösen könnte . . . vielleicht Music . . . was weiß ich? . . . Das Leben kommt mir noch so neu vor, und vorläufig genieße ich es, mich weiblichen Beschäftigungen hingeben zu können. Ich nähe so gern und liebe es, Lampenschirme zu machen . . .

(21) Diesman bin ich nur der Ausstellung wegen nach KopenhagenCopenhagen (historical), capital of Denmark gekommen, aber ich war schon vor kurzem einmal wieder hier. GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener und ich mußten ja nach DänemarkDenmark is a Scandinavian country in northern Europe whose capital is Copenhagen., um mir eine neue Identität zu verschaffen, und weil das Verhältnis zwischen GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener und mir, rein gesetzmäßig gesehen, in Ordnung gebracht werden mußte. Ich hatte die notwendigen Gutachten des Dresdener ArztesKurt Warnekros (1882–1949), a German gynecologist who performed all but the first of four surgeries on Lili Elvenes; director of the Women’s Clinic in Dresden (Staatliche Frauenklinik) from 1925 to 1948 bei mir, und dank seiner Autoritäat und dem Verständnis der dänischen Behörden gelang es mir, dis gerichtlichen Formalitäten verhältnismäßig schnell zu ordnen. Mein Geschlecht wurde im Kirchenbuch geändert, und ich bekam das Recht zu meinem neuen Namen . . ."

(22) "Wurden Sie auch geschieden?"

(23) "Nein, den die Ehe zwichen EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 und Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener wurde durch Gerichtsurteil für ungültig erklärt. Sie sind also nicht geschieden—sie waren neimals verheiratet."

(24) "Und was sind Ihre zukünftigen Pläne?"

(25) "GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener fährt demnächst nach MarokkoMorocco (historical), a country in northern Africa, wo sie sich studienhalber lägere Zeit aufhalten wird. Ich gehe nach ParisParis (historical), capital of France, um verschiedenes zu ordnen, und besuche sie sicher dann in MarokkoMorocco (historical), a country in northern Africa, wo ich noch nie war . . . Was ich dann tue — ja, das wird die Zeit lehren, vorläufig bin ich nur froh, so sein zu dürfen, wie ich bin", schließt Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931.

(26) Frau GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener sagt . . .

(27) Was sie zu allem sage, frage ich erschüttert Frau GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener. "Ich bin glücklich, daß LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 jetzt ein glück-licher Mensch geworden ist. Ich werde sie nie verlassen. Wir sind Freundinnen für Lebenszeit. Und ich bin ja auch die Berufenste, ihr beizustehen, sie zu leiten, damit sie ihren Weg, diesen neuen, wunderbaren Weg gehen kann."

(28) Mehr sagt Frau GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener nicht, lächelt aus ihren tapferen Augen, die nichts von dem Leid, das sie erfahren hat, verraten . . . [Picture: Die Malerin Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener, die frühere Frau Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931s (Paris, 1930)]

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(29) Der ArztKurt Warnekros (1882–1949), a German gynecologist who performed all but the first of four surgeries on Lili Elvenes; director of the Women’s Clinic in Dresden (Staatliche Frauenklinik) from 1925 to 1948 erzählt . . .

(30) "Ich will Ihnen gern erzählen, was ich zu erzählen habe", sagt der Arzt in DresdenKurt Warnekros (1882–1949), a German gynecologist who performed all but the first of four surgeries on Lili Elvenes; director of the Women’s Clinic in Dresden (Staatliche Frauenklinik) from 1925 to 1948. "Ich kenne die Frau, die jetzt Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 heißt, die früher also der Maler Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 war, von einem Pariser Aufenthalt her. Damals stand sie vor dem Selbstmord . . . Sie konnte sich im Leben nicht zurechtfinden. Hervorragende französische Ärzte hatten ihr nicht helfen können, sie standen auf dem Standpunkt, daß ihr nicht zu helfen sei, daß sich in ihr Schicksal finden müsse. Ihre Familie und ihre Freunde baten mich dringlich, sie wenigstens zu untersuchen. Und da ich mit dem unglücklichen Menschenkind das tiefste Mitgefühl hatte, willigte ich schließlich ein.

(31) Zu meiner Überraschung fand ich da, obgleich sie in ihrem Äußern ausgeprägt männliche Züge hatte, daß diese Züge nur sekundärer Nautr waren—in Wirklichkeit war ihre Anatomie die einer Frau . . . Für einen Fachmann bestand kein Zweifel, daß die Natur eine Frau hatte schaffen wollen . . . Und ich begriff, daß es durch einen operativen Eingriff möglich sine müßte, diese arme Frau von ihren jahrelangen Leiden zu befreien und sie dem Leben als neuen Menschen zurückzugeben. Ich war mir auch bewußt, welch ein Risiko mit einem derartigen Experiment verbunded war, den in Wirklichkeit war es ein Experiment für mich, da ich auf keinen ähnlichen Fall zurückgreifen konnte. Aber ich meinte, die Chance sei größer als das Risiko. Jetzt hinterher bin ich stolz, sagen zu können, daß das Experiment über all Erwartungen hinaus geglückt ist.

(32) Mein PatientLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 war damit einverstanden, zu mir in die Klinik nach DresdenMunicipal Women's Clinic (fictional and historical) is the Staatliche Frauenklinik in Dresden, directed by Professor Kurt Warnekros from 1925 to 1948." zu kommen und sich von mir behandeln zu lassen. Vorher waren Untersuchungen durch zwei namhafte Berliner Internisten vorgenommen worden, vor allem hatte der eine Blutproben gemacht. Über Einzelheiten kann ich mich nicht äußern. Nur so viel kann ich sagen, daß die Operation (es waren mehrere) sehr kimpliziert und nicht ungefährlich war. Unter anderem wurde schließlich eine Art Verjüngungskur vorgenommen, indem der Patientin—sie war Anfang der Vierzig—von einer 26 Jahre alten Frau Ovarien eingesetzt wurden.

(33) Und nach Gelingen der Operationen geschah das Merkwürdige und Wunderbare, daß ihre schlummernde Weiblichkeit plötzlich erwachte und sich zu entfalten began, sowohl seelisch wie körperlich. Sie ist jetzt eine völlig normale Frau, und währen ihr früher das Leben eine Qual war, hat sie jetzt ihre Gemütsruhe und ihr seelisches Gleichgewicht wiedergefunded. Alles deutet darauf hin, daß sie noch viele gute Jahre vor sich hat . . . Und dann ist dieser eigenmächtige Eingriff in die Ordnung der Natur völlig zu verantworten und zu rechtfertigen." [Picture: Lile ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 (der in eine Frau verwandelte Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931) im Garten der Staatlichen FrauenklinikMunicipal Women's Clinic (fictional and historical) is the Staatliche Frauenklinik in Dresden, directed by Professor Kurt Warnekros from 1925 to 1948." zu DresdenDresden (historical), city in Germany (Mai 1930)]

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(34) FAHRT DURCH NACHT

(35) Von Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931

(36) Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 will all das Schwere, das sie erlebt hat, sich von der Seele schreiben. Ihr Buch, das im Spätsommer u. a. in deutscher Sprache vorliegen soll, wird die Beichte einer Frau sein, die ein Menschenleben lang als Maler Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 gelebt und gelitten hat. Wir sind in der Lage, aus dieser Beichte schon jetzt eine Probe zum Abdruck zu bringen, einen Auszug aus einem der ersten Kapitel, das Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931s schicksalsschwere Fahrt von ParisParis (historical), capital of France nach BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany erzählt und im tiefsten Sinne der Abschied EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931s von seiner bisherigen Wesensform als Mann ist: Zum letztenmal trifft er als Mann mit einer Frau zusammen, zum letztenmal darf er "Ritter" dem "schwachen Geschlecht" gegenüber sein. – Denn in BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany entscheidet sich die Frage seiner künftigen Lebensform als Frau.

(37) Langsam steigerte sich die Geschwindigkeit des Zuges. EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 saß hingesunken auf seinem Eckplatz im Abteil—mit leeren Augen. Die Verstädte von ParisParis (historical), capital of France, die hastiger vorüberglitten, zerstreuten sich, wurden Häuser mit Gärten, gingen über in Felder mit vereinzelten großen, aufragenden Reklameschildern. Er rauchte eine Zigarette nach der anderen. Eine Art Traurigkeit rührte sich in ihm, beinahe wie Gewissenbisse, und schwand wieder hin im Rauch seiner Zigarette.

(38) GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar WegenerElenaElena Rossini (fictional), modeled on Hélène Kann Allatini (1887-1943), friend of the Wegeners; author of Mosaiques—diese beiden lieben Freundinnen, denen er es vor allem zu verdanken hatte, daß er ParisParis (historical), capital of France wie seine Heimat fühlte—ParisParis (historical), capital of France—hatte er eigentlich ParisParis (historical), capital of France gesehen, jetzt, wo er wegfuhr? Er hatte nicht einmal daran gedacht, sich aus dem Fenster hinauszubeugen und zum letztenmal die schlanke Silhouette des EiffelturmEiffel Tower (historical), the most famous Parisian landmark, constructed in 1887s und die weiße Kuppel von Sacré-CœurSacré-Coeur (historical), a Roman Catholic church in Paris zu sehen, jetzt, ehe sie für immer am Horizont verblaßten.

(39) Für immer? Ja, für ihn was es für immer! Denn er, EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931, er würde nie mehr nach ParisParis (historical), capital of France zurückkommen. Vielleicht LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 . . . Aber das war ja etwas ganz anderes. Er fühlte einen Stich im Herzen.

(40) Eine Glocke erklang im Korridor:"Le dejeuner premier service!"

(41) Allgemeiner Aufbruch im Abteil. EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 schloß sich dem Strom der Reisenden nach dem Speisewagen an.

(42) Als er zurückkam, blieb er bei einem Korridorfenster stehen. Der Zug raste in rhythmischer Fahrt durch NordfrankreichNorthern France (historical), France is a western European country. We had to distinguish Northern France from France because in some languages Northern France is one word and can signify a specific region with its unique identity. . . .

(43) Plötzlich krümmte EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 sich vor Schmerzen; er mußte sich am Handgriff des Fensters festhelten. Hilflos blickete er auf seine Uhr. War es wirklich noch nicht mehr als 3? Wie die Zeit hinschlich! . . . Einen Augenblick bereut er bitter, GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener daran gehindert zu haben, ihn zu begleiten. Dann riß er sich wieder zusammen, richtete sich auf und steckte sich eine Zigarette an. Rechts und links sausten Felder und neu aufgebaute Ortschaften vorüber, und Kriegsfriedhöfe . . . Und wieder Felder und wieder Orte, Ebenen und Hügel. Er sah gar nicht mehr hinaus. Erst die Zollgrenze brachte eine kleine Abwechslung in den endlosen Nachmittag hinein.

(44) Dann ging es in Schneckenfahr durch BelgienBelgium (historical), a country in western Europe whose capital is Brussels.. Eine neue Grenze mußte erreicht werden, um die Energie der Lokomotive neu zu entfachen. Jetzt raste der Zug in DeutschlandGermany is a western European country whose capital is Berlin. hinein, und die Nacht sickerte aufs Land.

(45) EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 saß auf seinem Eckplatz im Abteil. Die Schmerzen waren so heftig geworden, daß er sich im Korridor nicht mehr aufrecht halten konnte. Er schloß die Augen. Vielleicht wäre es dich viel leichte gewesen, dieses phantastische Experiment nicht zu versuchen. Aber dann entsann er sich einer Briefstelle an seinen Arztfreund in DresdenDresden (historical), city in Germany: "Ich verschreibe mich Ihnen auf Leben und Tod, wenn nur LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 weiterleben darf." Alles, was noch an männlichem Stolz in ihm übrig war, rührte sich in ihm: "Also muß ich Berin erreichen", sagte er zu sich selbst.

(46) Er versuchte seinen Gedanken eine andere Richtung zu geben, um seine zunehmende Nervosität zu dämpfen, ihm fiel ein Zusammentreffen mit einem "Kollegen" auf dem "Strög"Strog (historical), actually “Strøget,” the main shopping street in Copenhagen, closed to traffic in KopenhagenCopenhagen (historical), capital of Denmark ein, als er dort einmal eine Ausstellung abhielt: "Jetzt will ich Ihnen einmal meine ehrlich Meinung sagen, Lieber WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931." –"Lieber nicht, Verehrter", war EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 ihm schnell ins Wort gefallen, "den Sie wissen,
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ich bin ein gutter Boxer!" Und der "Kollege" war plötzlich zusammengeschrumpft wie eine Schweinsblase, in die man ein Loch gestrochen hat, und war lautlos verschwunden.

(47) Ein leises Lachen schüttelte EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 bei dieser Erinnerung, -- aber dabei erwachten aufs neue die Schmerzen, und er fühlte wieder das Schlingern des Wagens, das Stoßen dar Räder und wie Dolchstiche jede Erschütterung des Zuges.

(48) Als sich das Abateil nach KölnCologne (historical), city in Germany, wo die Schlafwagen angekoppelt wurden, leerte – den die übrigen Reisenden hatten Schlafplätze bestellt --, fühlte er die Leere um sich wie eine Wohltat. Jetzt war er endlich allein.

(49) Er stand auf, schlenderte hin und her, streckte sich und gähnte, eigentlich war er schläfrig. Er steckte sich eine Zigarette an, da überfielen ihn neue Schmerzen. Und diesmal war der Anfall so stark, daß er mit einem halb unterdrückten Aufschrei auf das Polster des Sitzes niedersank. Und er saß eine Zeitlang da, zusammengekrümmt, die Hände gegen den Leib gepreßt, -- alles verschleierte sich um ihn, er fühlte sich eigenhüllt in einen warmen, watteartigen, rötlichen Nebel, -- und dann kam in leerer Raum, eine dunkle Tiefe, in der sein Bewußtsein unterging . . .

(50) Etwas später fand er sich selber auf dem Boden des Abteils wieder, den Kopf gegen die Sitzbank gelehnt. Verwirrt blicket er sich um. Was war geschehen? Ja, jetzt entsann er sich. Was war die Uhr? Wie lange hatte er hir gelegen? 12! Noch nich später als 12? Noch Sieben Stunden bis BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany . . .

(51) Mit größter Vorsicht versuchte er sich zu erheben. Langsam gelang es ihm, wieder auf den Sitzplatz zu kommen. Ja, im Augenblick ging es ihm also etwas besser. Aber es würde wohl das best sein, zu versuchen, sich hinzulagen. Vielleicht würde er schlafen können. Er fühlte sich grenzenlos erschöpft.

(52) Und er legte sich hin und deckte sich mit seinem Mantel zu. Jetzt fror ihn plötzlich. Er hatte gewiß Fieber. Das Deckenlicht des Abteils drang blendend durch seine geschlossenen Lider. Vielleicht würde es das beste sein, das Licht etwas zu dämpfen oder es vielleicht ganz auszudrehen. Er sammelte seine Kräfte, erhob sich zog die Vorhänge nach dem Korridor vor und drehte das Licht aus.

(53) Im selben Augenblick raste der Zug mit ohrenbetäubendem Lärm durch eine Station, deren Bahnsteiglampen mit blauweißem Schimmer vor seinen Fenstern vorbeischwirrten. Erschöpft fiel er auf seinen Platz nieder und zog den Mantel bis zu den Ohren über sich.

(54) Hatte er hohes Fieber? Begann er Halluzinationen zu bekommen? Er konnte fühlen, [Picture: Ein Werk des Malers Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931: Sommer in SüdfrankreichSouthern France (historical), France is a western European country. We had to distinguish Southern France from France because in some languages Southern France is one word and can signify a specific region with its unique identity.] wie alle Farbe aus seinem Gesicht wich . . . seine Zähne klapperten . . . wie kalt es im Abteil war. Er bebte vor Kälte, und Angstschweiß floß ihm von den Schläfen . . .

(55) Der Zug fuhr langsamer, hielt endlich bei einer Station. "HannoverHanover (historical), also spelled Hannover, city in Germany, HannoverHanover (historical), also spelled Hannover, city in Germany" – und wieder ferner "HannoverHanover (historical), also spelled Hannover, city in Germany" hörte er. Hammerschläge gegen die Wagenräder. Lärm vor seinem Fenster. Stimmen—alles wie gedämpft durch einen Wattevorhang. Türen wurden geschlagen. Die Maschine zog wieder an, der Zug ächzte und setzte sich langsam wieder in Gang.

(56) Plötzlich sprang EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 auf. Die Tür seines Abtails wurde aufgerissen. Eine Damensilhouette zeigte sich in der Öffnung gegen das Licht vom Korridor. Einen Augenblick zögerte sie wohl wegen des Dunkels im Abteil, -- dann legte sie einen Handkoffer in das Netz und ließ sich erschöpft in die Ecke EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 gegenüber fallen.

(57) Er machte Licht.

(58) Etwas verärgert musterte er die Damebride (fictional), no known historical model, die so jäh seiner Einsamkeit ein Ende gemacht hatte. Jetzt war er also gezwungen, bis nach BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany mit ihr zusammenzusitzen. Denn der Zug hielt vor Berlin nicht mehr. Aber er riß sich zusammen und tat so, als sei nichts geschehen. Denn in ihm war noch so viel Mann, daß er keine Teilnahme von Fremden wünschte.

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(59) Sie war übrigens jung und recht elegant, -- aber ihre weit aufgerissenen Augen hatten einen leeren Ausdruck. Sie sah aus, als starre sie durch die Wände auf irgend etwas Fernes, das sie versteinerte. EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 fühlte eine entsetzliche seltsames Unbehangen.

(60) Die Hitze im Abteil war unerträglich. Er fühlte eine entsetzliche Trockenheit im Halse. Er begriff nicht, wieso es plötzlich so warm geworden war. Kurz zuvor hatten noch vor Kälte seine Zähen geklappert . . .

(61) Und wieder jagte der Zug mit teuflischem Lärm an einer Station vorbei, und die Bahnsteig-lichter blendeten durch das Waggonfenster . . . Er sprang auf und zog die Vorhänge wieder vor.

(62) Jetzt weinte die Fremdebride (fictional), no known historical model! Tränen stürzten über ihr blasses Gesicht, und sie machte nicht den geringsten Versuch, ihr Weinen zu verbergen oder die Tränen zu trocknen. Hatte sie den nicht gesehen, daß er ihr gegenübersaß? Frauen sind sonderbar. Aber waren sie so verschieden von Männern? Besaßen sie gar keinen Stolz? Waren sie so schwach?

(63) LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 – würde sie auch so werden? Ja – eigentlich war auch sie immer so gewesen . . .

(64) Ein Mitgefühl ergriff ihn plötzlich mit dem Leid dieser unbekannten jungen Fraubride (fictional), no known historical model.

(65) "Mademoiselle", begann er leise . . .

(66) Sie schien ihn nicht zu hören. Da erinnerte er sich, daß er in DeutschlandGermany is a western European country whose capital is Berlin. war.

(67) "Gnädiges Fräulein", wiederholte er fast ver-legen . . .

(68) Da hob sie ihre werweinten Augen und sah in EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931s Gesicht ein teilnehmendes Lächeln. Das war es, was ihr in diesem Augenblick no-tat. Weinige Minuten später kannte er den Grund ihrer Verzweiflung: Ihr Verlobter, ein bekannter MusikerPianist XX (fictional), no known historical model, war neulich nach BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany gefahren, um einige Konzerte zu geben. Sie hatte ihn bereits zurückerwartet und freute sich schon auf das Wiedersehen. Da hatte sie an diesem Abend zufällig in einer Zeitung gelesen, daß er bei einem Automobilzusammenstoß schwer verletzt worden sei und jetzt in einer Berliner Klinik läge. EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 las diesen schlimmen Bericht in der zerknitterten Zeitung, die sie ihm hinielt . . .

(69) Was konnte er für sie tun? Er hatte immer schon eine gewisse mystische Kraft besessen, Schmerzen bei anderen zu stillen. Hatter er in dieser unheimlichen Nacht noch Kräfte genug, diesem gepeinigten Frauenherzen etwas Ruhe zu schenken? Er suchte mühevoll seine halbvergessenen deutschen Sprachvorräte und fand schließlich tröstende und beruhigende Wrote. Still nahm er ihre fieberheißen Hände in seine und fühlte, wie sie sich nach und nach beruhigte. Und ihr Kopf glitt schließlich auf seine Schulter nieder, sie schlief.

(70) Ja, er hatte also noch etwas Kraft, -- jedenfalls, wenn es sich um andere handelte. Also hatte er wohl auch noch Kraft genug, um sein eigenes Ziel zu erreichen . . .

(71) Er wagte sich nicht zu rühren, aus Furcht sie zu wecken. Bei der geringsten Bewegung begann sie im Schlafe zu wimmern wie ein krankes Kind. Er schloß die Augen und versuchte nun auch zu schlafen. Der regelmäßige, jagende Rhythmus des Zuges wiegte sie beide ein. Wie seltsam das Leben doch war! Reicher an Überraschungen als alle Romane der Welt. Hier saß er nun, Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931, der Maler aus ParisParis (historical), capital of France, mit einem ganz unbekannten deutschen Fräuleinbride (fictional), no known historical model, das in seinen Armem schlief, und jeder von ihnen beiden fuhr dem eigenen Schicksal entgegen – irgendwo in DeutschlandGermany is a western European country whose capital is Berlin. . . .

(72) Er saß etwas im Halbschlaf da, wie lange, wußte er nicht. Dann durchzuckte ein dolchspitziger Schmerz seinen Körper, und er war gezwungen, seine Stellung zu ändern.

(73) Sie erwachte mit Entsetzen in den Augen, und ihre Tränen strömten wieder.

(74) Er mußte von vorn beginnen. Mit Aufbietung seines ganzen Willens, während die Schmerzen in seinem eigenen Innern rasten, gelang es ihm noch einaml, den fremden Reisekameraden in Schlaf zu lullen. Fremd – nein, so fühlte er es eigentlich jetzt nicht. War sie ihm nicht gesandt worden, damit er sich selbst in dieser endlosen Nacht vergessen konnte, vielleicht, damit er eine gut Tat tun konnte, jetzt, zum Schluß? War dieses kleine deutsche Mädchenbride (fictional), no known historical model, das hier, an seine Brust gelehnt, schlief, nicht das letzte Mädchen, das an seiner, EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931s Brust, lag, war es nicht im tiefsten Sinne der Abschied von anderen . . . war es nicht das letzte Zusammentreffen des Mannes mit der Frau? . . .

(75) Ein graues, kaltes Morgenlicht sickerte durch die Vorhänge. EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 zog sie vorsichtig beiseite, und BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germanys Vorstädte glitten hastig vorüber.

(76) Als sein Reisenkamerad mit einem Angstschrei erwachte, ergriff er ihre Hände, und mit einer mystischen Überzeugung sagte er: "Seien Sie nur ruhig, er ist nicht tot! Ich selber war in dieser Nacht dem Tode nahe, aber jetzt, wo wir beide ans Ziel gekommen sind, fühle ich bestimmt, daß er und ich, daß wir beide leben werden."

(77) Wortlos blicket sie ihn an, als der Zug in den Bahnhof Friedrichstraße rollte. Und als sie ihm Lebewohl sagte, sah er ein Hoffen in ihren verweinten Augen, und er fühlte mit Gewißheit, daß dieses Hoffen nicht zuschanden gemacht werden würde.

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A PERSON CHANGES HIS SEX -@Editor: PLC

Signatures of Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 and Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 By Niels HoyerNiels Hoyer (historical), pseudonym of Ernst Harthern, who composed and edited Man into Woman

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(01) When one of the biggest newspapers in CopenhagenCopenhagen (historical), capital of Denmark recently reported that the marriage of the artist couple EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 and Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener, who are well-known beyond DenmarkDenmark is a Scandinavian country in northern Europe whose capital is Copenhagen.'s borders, had been declared invalid by the Danish authorities, a marriage that lasted more than 20 years and was the result of his childhood love "at first sight", the"uninitiated" caught their breath. The announcement created a stir. And the whispering began, especially since Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener, who was holding an exhibition of her latest pictures and many of Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931's pictures in CopenhagenCopenhagen (historical), capital of Denmark, declared that EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 was exhibiting for the very last time. . .

(02) Soon afterwards, the"uninitiated" found out the cause of both-- from the mouth of Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931, a young lady whose name no one had heard before. She was seen accompanied by Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener. Unrecognized, she went through GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener's exhibition with her. She greeted [Two pictures: Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 as a painter in ParisParis (historical), capital of France . . . Now Fräulein Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 (CopenhagenCopenhagen (historical), capital of Denmark, February 1931)]
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here and there a familiar face, and her greeting met astonished eyes.

(03) For several years GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener and Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 had lived and painted in ParisParis (historical), capital of France. When they married, she was 17 and he was 19 years old. . .In ParisParis (historical), capital of France they had made a name for themselves. Both exhibited for years in the foremost Salons of ParisParis (historical), capital of France, both possessed the AcademyArt Academy (fictional), modeled on The Royal Danish Academy of Fine Arts (Det Kongelige Danske Kunstakademi) in Copenhagen, where Einar and Gerda Wegener studied and met’s "Golden Palms." There is even a portrait by GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener in the Luxembourg MuseumLuxembourg Museum (historical), a museum of contemporary art located in Paris in ParisParis (historical), capital of France. –

(04) "Why", I asked Ms. GerdaGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener,"does EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 no longer want to paint?"

(05) "Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 may tell you that", answered Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener quietly and simply. . .

(06) "Yes, I would like that, because I consider it my duty to tell the truth about the painter Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931, who no longer exists. . ."

(07) "EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 is not dead, is he?" I asked horrified.

(08) "No, he is not, but he no longer exists either. He voluntarily extinguished himself to make room for another being who, as he said, has a greater right to exist than himself, and I am that other being. Yes, I know that you and perhaps many others will find it difficult to understand. But my life has turned out so completely different that in reality I am no longer living my previous life; rather, I have concluded one existence and am now beginning another. [Picture: A Porcelain Sculpture by Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931] -@Editor: PLC I will try to explain it to you."

(09) LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 leans back in a deep armchair and puts her high heeled shoes on a stool. There is a dreamy look in her large, dark eyes. She tells of a small child who, once born in the JutlandJutland (historical), the largest region of Denmark town of VejleVejle (historical), Einar Wegener’s birthplace in the Jutland region of Denmark, was declared a boy by the pastor and midwife and entered in the church register as Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931. It was a very beautiful child, and since Einar's motherAne Marie Wegener (historical), Einar Wegener’s mother liked to dress up the boy nicely, there were already many who believed he was a little girl.

(10) EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 himself felt like a boy when he played with his brothers, but his greatest pleasure was driving around his sisters’ doll carriage--but only when no one saw it. But as the boy was growing up, he sometimes had a distant feeling that he was not quite like the others. But such thoughts drifted away in the boy's brain under a gradually growing enthusiasm for art and literature. The youngster wanted to become an artist. He came to CopenhagenCopenhagen (historical), capital of Denmark and soon to the art academyArt Academy (fictional), modeled on The Royal Danish Academy of Fine Arts (Det Kongelige Danske Kunstakademi) in Copenhagen, where Einar and Gerda Wegener studied and met.

(11) Here he met a young girl named Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener who had also chosen art as her profession. It was love at first sight. Both were still very young-- LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 recounts--when they got married, maybe so young that they didn't really know what they were doing, but they have never regretted this step later. This bond, which everyone else always regarded as a marriage, was built on mutual understanding, unbreakable friendship, inner trust and a sense of camaraderie in work. That is why they never let each other down, and that is why they will continue to be close to each other like two true friends who wish each other the best and want to do everything to help each other.

(12) And LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 continues:"Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener often used her husband as a model, almost always for female nudes, and through Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener's artistic
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instinct it happened that the feminine element in EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931’s being gradually became more and more strongly accentuated, so that he little by little came to the correct knowledge of his true self. . . And now began a number of years that were so filled with suffering that I would like to think of them no longer. Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 felt like someone forced to walk around in a strange garment that restricts him and makes him feel ridiculous. This psychological suffering had a physical dimension as well. He sought help from French doctors in ParisParis (historical), capital of France in vain. Nobody wanted to believe him. They thought he was hysterical and treated him with X-rays, which, as it turned out later, did more harm than good."

(13) "By chance," continues LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931," when I had already given up all hopes of ever becoming a normal feeling and thinking person again, I came into contact with an outstanding German gynecologist, Professor Dr. K. v. W.Kurt Warnekros (1882–1949), a German gynecologist who performed all but the first of four surgeries on Lili Elvenes; director of the Women’s Clinic in Dresden (Staatliche Frauenklinik) from 1925 to 1948, the head of the State Women's ClinicMunicipal Women's Clinic (fictional and historical) is the Staatliche Frauenklinik in Dresden, directed by Professor Kurt Warnekros from 1925 to 1948." in DresdenDresden (historical), city in Germany. He examined me and found that I was not a man, but rather, to a far greater extent, a woman. The result was that, at his request, I first went to two specialists in BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany for examinations and then to DresdenDresden (historical), city in Germany, where he performed several difficult operations on me in his clinic. Incidentally, they were the first of this kind that he had ever carried out. . .

(14) There were many months of suffering. I was often close to death. But science and my own nature won. Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 came to the clinicMunicipal Women's Clinic (fictional and historical) is the Staatliche Frauenklinik in Dresden, directed by Professor Kurt Warnekros from 1925 to 1948.", and the woman you are talking to now, who calls herself Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931, left it."

(15) "And are you now happy?" I asked her.

(16) "Yes I am. I am as happy, as one can only become when one is released from circumstances that are forced upon one, as one can only be when one feels in harmony [Picture: Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 about 12 years ago based on a drawing by Louis KohlNeeds Editor's Note..] with oneself. . . That is exactly what I would like to make clear: Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 is no longer, and that is why he can no longer paint – he did not give it up because he despaired of his art.

(17) "But are you then not capable of painting?"

(18) I don’t know. I haven't tried, and I don't feel the urge to do so. Remember, life is still so new to me, I first have to find my way in existence. . . And even if I should try to paint, my whole attitude, my whole outlook on life is so different from EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931's that it could never be a continuation of his work. He was so distinctly masculine in all of his painting style. . . No, this is and will be Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931's last exhibition."

(19) "Do you think, then, that you can do without art entirely?"

(20) "No, but it is possible that my artistic instinct could express itself in completely different
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[Picture: A painting by Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener: Three women The artist used her husband EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 as a model for the middle one, while she portrayed herself in the woman on the right] forms. . . perhaps music. . . what do I know? . . . Life still seems so new to me, and for the time being I am enjoying being able to indulge in feminine pursuits. I like sewing, and I love making lampshades. . .

(21) I only came to CopenhagenCopenhagen (historical), capital of Denmark for the exhibition, but I've been here again recently. Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener and I had to go to DenmarkDenmark is a Scandinavian country in northern Europe whose capital is Copenhagen. to find a new identity for myself and because the relationship between Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener and me had to be put in order, from a purely legal point of view. I had the necessary reports from the DresdenDresden (historical), city in Germany doctor with me, and thanks to his authority and the understanding of the Danish authorities I was able to settle the judicial formalities relatively quickly. My gender was changed in the church book and I got the right to my new name. . ."

(22) "Did you get divorced too?"

(23) "No, the marriage between EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 and Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener was declared invalid by a court judgment. So they are not divorced - they have never been married."

(24) "And what are your future plans?"

(25) "Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener is going to MoroccoMorocco (historical), a country in northern Africa soon, where she will be staying for a longer period of time to study. I'm going to ParisParis (historical), capital of France to sort things out, and I'm sure I'll visit her in MoroccoMorocco (historical), a country in northern Africa, where I've never been. . . What I do then - time will tell, for now I'm just happy to be allowed to be who I am", Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 concludes.

(26) Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener says . . .

(27) Shaken, I ask Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener for her response to all of this. "I am glad that LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 has now become a happier person. I will never leave her. We are friends for life. And I am also the most qualified to help her, to guide her so that she can go her own way, this new, wonderful path."

(28) Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener says nothing more, she smiles with her brave eyes that reveal nothing of the suffering she has experienced. . .
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(29) The Doctor Reports . . .

(30) "I will gladly tell you what I have to recount," says the doctor in DresdenDresden (historical), city in Germany."I know the woman who is now called Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931, who used to be the painter Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931, from a stay in ParisParis (historical), capital of France. At that time she was facing suicide. . . She couldn't find her way in life. Outstanding French doctors could not help her; they took the stand that she could not be helped, that she must find her own fate. Her family and friends urged me to at least examine her. And since I had the deepest sympathy for this unhappy person, I finally consented.

(31) To my surprise, although she had distinctly masculine features, I found that those features were only of a secondary nature — in fact her anatomy was that of a woman. . . There was no doubt for a professional that nature intended to create a woman. . . And I understood that it should be possible through an operation to free this poor woman from her years of suffering and to return her to life as a new person. I was also aware of the risk associated with such an experiment, because in reality it was an experiment for me as I could not fall back on a similar case. But I thought the opportunity was greater than the risk. Now afterwards I am proud to say that the experiment went beyond all expectations.

(32) My patient agreed to come to me at the clinic in DresdenDresden (historical), city in Germany and to be treated by me. Before that, tests had been carried out by two well-known BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany-based internists, one of whom had taken a blood test. I cannot comment on details. I can only say that the operation (there were several) was very complicated and not without risk. Among other things, a kind of rejuvenation cure was eventually undertaken in which the patient — she was in her early forties — received ovaries from a 26 year old woman.

(33) And after the operations were successful, the strange and wonderful thing happened that her slumbering femininity suddenly awoke and began to unfold, both mentally and physically. She is a perfectly normal woman now, and where life used to be an ordeal for her, she has now regained her calmness and balance. Everything indicates that she still has many good years ahead of her. . . And in that case this unauthorized intervention in the order of nature is completely responsible and justifiable."

(34) [Picture: Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 (Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 transformed into a woman) in the garden of the State Women's ClinicMunicipal Women's Clinic (fictional and historical) is the Staatliche Frauenklinik in Dresden, directed by Professor Kurt Warnekros from 1925 to 1948." in DresdenDresden (historical), city in Germany (May 1930)]

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(35) JOURNEY THROUGH THE NIGHT

(36) By Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931

(37) Lili ElbeLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 wants to write from her soul all the hardship that she has experienced. Her book, which was published in late summer in German, will be the confession of a woman who lived and suffered all her life as the painter Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931. We are now in a position to print a sample from this confession, an excerpt from one of the first chapters, which tells Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931's fateful journey from ParisParis (historical), capital of France to BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany and, in the deepest sense, is EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931's farewell to his previous form of being as a man: For the last time he meets a woman as a man, for the last time he is allowed to be a "knight" to the "weaker sex". - Because in BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany the question of his future way of life as a woman is decided.

(38) The speed of the train increased slowly. EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 sat sunk in his corner seat in the compartment - with empty eyes. The urban areas of ParisParis (historical), capital of France, which passed more quickly, dispersed, became houses with gardens, turned into fields with a few large, towering advertising signs. He smoked one cigarette after the other. A kind of sadness stirred in him, almost like remorse, and vanished again in the smoke of his cigarette.

(39) Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar WegenerElenaElena Rossini (fictional), modeled on Hélène Kann Allatini (1887-1943), friend of the Wegeners; author of Mosaiques — these two dear friends, whom he above all had to thank that ParisParis (historical), capital of France felt like his home — ParisParis (historical), capital of France — had he actually seen ParisParis (historical), capital of France now that he was leaving? He hadn't even thought of leaning out the window and seeing the slender silhouette of the Eiffel TowerEiffel Tower (historical), the most famous Parisian landmark, constructed in 1887 and the white dome of the Sacré-CœurSacré-Coeur (historical), a Roman Catholic church in Paris for the last time, now before they faded forever on the horizon.

(40) Forever? Yes, it was forever for him! Because he, EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931, he would never come back to ParisParis (historical), capital of France. Maybe LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931. . . But that was something completely different. He felt a pang in his heart.

(41) A bell rings in the corridor: "The first lunch service!"

(42) A general departure from the compartment. EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 joined the stream of travelers to the dining car.

(43) When he came back he stopped by a corridor window. The train sped in a rhythmical journey through northern FranceNorthern France (historical), France is a western European country. We had to distinguish Northern France from France because in some languages Northern France is one word and can signify a specific region with its unique identity.. . .

(44) Suddenly EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 doubled over in pain; he had to hold on to the handle of the window. He looked helplessly at his watch. Was it really not more than 3? How time crept! . . . For a moment he bitterly regretted having prevented Gerda WegenerGerda Maria Frederikke Gottlieb Wegener (1885-1940), an art deco painter and illustrator; married to Einar Wegener from accompanying him. Then he pulled himself together again, straightened up, and lit a cigarette. To the left and right, fields and newly built towns rushed past, as well as war cemeteries. . . And again fields and again places, plains and hills. He saw nothing more at all. Only the customs border brought a little change into the endless afternoon.

(45) Then the train traveled snaillike through BelgiumBelgium (historical), a country in western Europe whose capital is Brussels.. A new border had to be reached to rekindle the power of the locomotive. Now the train raced into GermanyGermany is a western European country whose capital is Berlin. as the night settled on the land.

(46) EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 sat in his corner seat in the compartment. The pain had become so severe that he could no longer stand upright in the corridor. He closed his eyes. Perhaps it would have been much easier not to try this fantastic experiment. But then he remembered a letter to his doctor friend in DresdenDresden (historical), city in Germany:"I will commit myself to you for life and death, if only LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 is allowed to live." Everything that was left of male pride stirred in him: "So I have to get to BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany," he said to himself.

(47) He tried to give his thoughts a different direction in order to dampen his increasing nervousness, he remembered a meeting with a"colleague" at the "StrögStrog (historical), actually “Strøget,” the main shopping street in Copenhagen, closed to traffic" in CopenhagenCopenhagen (historical), capital of Denmark when he was holding an exhibition there: "Now I want to give you my honest opinion, dear WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931." -"Better not, dear fellow", EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 had quickly cut him off,"you know,
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I'm a good boxer!" And the"colleague" had suddenly shrunk away silently, like a pig's bladder into which a hole had been punched.

(48) EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 quietly shook with laughter at this memory, - but with that the pain awoke again, and he again felt the lurching of the car, the bumping of the wheels and, like the stabbing of a dagger, every vibration of the train.

(49) When the compartment emptied in CologneCologne (historical), city in Germany, where the sleeping cars were attached--because the other travelers had reserved sleeping places--he felt the emptiness around him as a relief. Now he was finally alone.

(50) He got up, strolled back and forth, stretched and yawned, actually he was sleepy. When he lit a cigarette, he was overtaken by a new wave of pain. And this time the seizure was so severe that he sank down on the cushion of the seat with a half-suppressed cry. And he sat there for a while, hunched up, his hands pressed against his body - everything was veiled around him, he felt himself enveloped in a warm, cotton-wool-like, reddish mist -- and then came into empty space, a dark depth into which his consciousness sank.

(51) A little later he found himself on the floor of the compartment, leaning his head against the bench. Confused, he looks around. What happened. Yes, now he remembered. What was the clock? How long had he laid here? 12! Not later than 12? Seven hours to BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany. . .

(52) With the greatest care he tried to get up. Slowly he managed to get back on the seat. Yes, so he was a little better at the moment. But it would probably be best to try to lie down. Maybe he could sleep. He felt utterly exhausted.

(53) And he lay down and covered himself with his cloak. Now suddenly he was freezing. Surely he had a fever. The overhead light of the compartment dazzled through his closed eyelids. Maybe it would be best to dim the light a bit or maybe turn it off completely. He gathered his strength, rose, drew the curtains in the corridor and turned off the light.

(54) At the same moment the train rushed through a station with a deafening noise, the platform lamps with their blue and white glimmer whizzing past its windows. Exhausted, he fell down on his seat and pulled his coat over himself up to his ears.

(55) Did he have a high fever? Was he starting to hallucinate? He could feel [Picture: A Work by the painter Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931: A Summer in Southern FranceSouthern France (historical), France is a western European country. We had to distinguish Southern France from France because in some languages Southern France is one word and can signify a specific region with its unique identity.] how all the color drained from his face. . . his teeth chattered. . . how cold it was in the compartment. He was shivering with cold, and cold sweat poured from his temples. . .

(56) The train slowed down, finally stopped at a station. "HanoverHanover (historical), also spelled Hannover, city in Germany, HanoverHanover (historical), also spelled Hannover, city in Germany" - and again "HanoverHanover (historical), also spelled Hannover, city in Germany" he heard. Hammer blows against the wagon wheels. Noise outside his window. Voices — everything as if muffled by a cotton curtain. Doors were slammed. The engine started again, the train groaned and slowly started again.

(57) Suddenly EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 jumped up. The door of his compartment was thrown open. A woman's silhouette showed in the opening against the light from the corridor. For a moment she hesitated because of the darkness of the compartment - then she put a suitcase in the luggage rack and, exhausted, dropped into the corner across from EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931.

(58) He turned on the light.

(59) Somewhat annoyed, he scrutinized the womanbride (fictional), no known historical model who had suddenly put an end to his loneliness. So now he was forced to sit with her all the way to BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany since the train had no more stops before then. But he pulled himself together and pretended that nothing had happened. For there was still enough man in him that he did not want the sympathy from strangers.

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(60) She was young and quite elegant, by the way - but her wide-open eyes had a blank expression. She looked like she was staring through the walls at something distant that was petrifying her. EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 felt a dire, strange unease.

(61) The heat in the compartment was unbearable. He felt a terrible dryness in his throat. He didn't understand why it had suddenly become so warm. Shortly before, his teeth had chattered from the cold. . .

(62) And again the train chased past a station with a devilish noise, and the platform lights dazzled through the car window. . . He jumped up and pulled the curtains back.

(63) Now the strangerbride (fictional), no known historical model was crying! Tears fell on her pale face and she made not the least effort to hide her crying or to wipe the tears. Hadn't she seen him sitting across from her? Women are strange. But were they so different from men? Didn't they have any pride? Were they so weak?

(64) LiliLili Elbe (fictional and historical), legal name Lili Ilse Elvenes; born Einar Wegener (1882), died in Dresden, 1931 - would she be like that too? Yes - actually she had always been like that too. . .

(65) Compassion suddenly seized him for the suffering of this unknown young womanbride (fictional), no known historical model.

(66) "Mademoiselle," he began quietly. . .

(67) She did not seem to hear him. Then he remembered that he was in GermanyGermany is a western European country whose capital is Berlin..

(68) "Young lady," he tried again, almost embarrassed. . .

(69) Then she raised her weeping eyes and saw a sympathetic smile on EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931's face. That was what she needed at that moment. A few minutes later he knew the reason for her despair: her fiancé, a well-known musicianPianist XX (fictional), no known historical model, had recently gone to BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany to give a few concerts. She had already expected him back and was looking forward to seeing him again. Then she happened to read in a newspaper that evening that he had been seriously injured in an automobile collision and was now in a BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany clinic. EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 read this terrible report in the crumpled newspaper she held out to him. . .

(70) What could he do for her? He had always had a certain mystical power to calm pain in others. Did he still have enough strength on that eerie night to give this tormented woman's heart some rest? He arduously searched his half-forgotten German language stock and finally found consoling and calming words. He quietly took her feverish hands in his and felt them gradually calm down. And her head finally slid down on his shoulder, she slept.

(71) So yes, he still had some strength - at least when it came to other people. So he probably still had enough strength to achieve his own goal. . .

(72) He dared not move for fear of waking her. At the slightest movement, she began to whimper in sleep like a sick child. He closed his eyes and now tried to sleep too. The regular, driving rhythm of the train cradled them both. How strange life was! Richer in surprises than any novel in the world. Here he was now, Einar WegenerEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931, the painter from ParisParis (historical), capital of France, with a completely unknown young German womanbride (fictional), no known historical model who slept in his arms as each of them rode toward their own fate - somewhere in GermanyGermany is a western European country whose capital is Berlin.. . .

(73) He sat there half asleep, for how long he did not know. Then a dagger-like pain shot through his body, and he was forced to change his position.

(74) She woke with horror in her eyes, and her tears streamed again.

(75) He had to start over. With the exertion of all his will, while his own pains raged within him, he managed to lull the strange travel companionbride (fictional), no known historical model to sleep. Strange - no, he did not really feel that way now. Had she not been sent to him so that he could forget himself on this endless night, perhaps so that he could do a good deed, now, at the end? Was this small German girlbride (fictional), no known historical model, who here on his chest lay sleeping, not the last girl that on his--EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931’s--chest lay, was it not in the deepest sense, a farewell to others. . . was it not the last meeting of man and woman? . . .

(76) A gray, cold morning light seeped through the curtains. EinarEinar Magnus Andreas Wegener (b. 1882), a Danish painter; married to Gerda Wegener; died as Lili Elbe in Dresden, 1931 carefully pulled them aside, and BerlinBerlin (historical), capital of Germany's suburbs glided quickly by.

(77) When his traveling companionbride (fictional), no known historical model woke up with a cry of fear, he took her hands and with a mystical conviction he said:"Just be calm, he is not dead! I myself was close to death this night, but now that we have both reached our goal, I feel certain, that he and I, that we both will live."

(78) She looked at him wordlessly as the train rolled into Friedrichstrasse station. And when she said goodbye to him, he saw hope in her tearful eyes, and he felt with certainty that this hope would not be shattered.